To Evolve

And if you're asking me
If I am over love,
You're a fool to believe
you gave me some.-Christina Perri



Lately I have one word on my mind; progress. I've made some, actually wait, I have made more than some. I worked hard to feel the way I feel today. But with as hard as I've worked, I know the days ahead will bring new journeys and I just want to be ready for them. I have had major things on my mind lately, I've been considering and reconsidering. I've been building and rebuilding. There's been some tears and a little bit of heartache but for the most part I have had the patience to withstand all the violent storms blowing my way. I feel tremendously lucky for some of the moments Ive been alive for. It felt good to be present in them. Its been years since I can say my being has been present entirely in any moment but lately it has. I travelled somewhere deep within myself and saved my own life. I can't explain the miracle of that. I only know enough to say it may seem like times are hard during hard times but I know everything works out eventually. Life takes its constant motion of moving forward and you have to move forward with it. You have to evolve.

Let's talk about evolving. I love the word, evolve. There's no pressure in it, there's no grand meaning to it, it simply just means you're allowing yourself to let the pieces fall where they are meant to fall. You're taking all complications out of it, putting aside romantic definitions of pretty situations with fantasy-like endings and you're being realistic. You're letting go of it all and choosing to evolve because whether you like it or not, it is going to happen, life will happen to you, either now or later. You'll see things differently, you'll see them in ways you never knew possible, you'll believe in things you didn't put a thought to and you'll see people for exactly who they are and it'll be beautiful. But I've learned that first, you have to let go. I don't know what YOU have to let go of, only you do and it took me years to figure out what that was for me but I did and you can too.