Fly Again

Life is funny, every memory is close but yet so far behind you now. It is as if yesterday I touched my fathers hand and told him I would be coming back again. Yesterday love was raw; it filled an irreplacable space. I can't keep considering yesterday, after all, what has it done for me? Perhaps such thoughts make time seem so strange. But I've considered this; time is the stranger showing up in every corner taking photographs of moments you'll file away forever, except, you don't even have forever, none of us do.

Change is also funny, it is one the most prominent happenings in life. We often get caught up in the process, we think just because our world doesn't look the same that there's something wrong but our world is constantly evolving into something new and exciting; something that is meant to be. I do not wonder anymore why my surroundings have changed or why people have come and gone. However, change in an internal sense is very...bizarre. I feel change when it occurs within myself, it is almost like waking one day, feeling yourself trying to fit into a different skin, feeling a part of yourself within your body, wiggle until the fit is just right. Sometimes that is scary. Sometimes...it is the unfamiliar that shakes us out of the state we've been annoyingly dwelling in.

For days, the silent noises within my brain have gotten louder. These sounds penetrate the drum of my ear making it impossible not to seek sunlight. During this time, I spoke words and those words changed everything. I was happy, sad, mad, glad, who knows what I was...but I found what I had been looking for; I found my own voice. I had been on this journey for many years wishing I could just be that girl again and not care. I've succeeded. I deserve this day for the countless hours I dedicated to flying again.

To conclude, we see beauty however we want to see it. For me, self-preservation was the answer on how to create a flawless design within. And if I made anyone mad by doing this, I'm sorry. If I made you happy, I'm glad. If I had given you an understanding about life that you might not have had, I'm fortunate and you were listening.

Today is the day to consider all of your wrongs. Forgive yourself for them. Use the lessons you learned as knowledge gained, a knowledge that will support you throughout the rest of your life. All you have to do now is L-I-V-E.

And if you haven't,

Spread your wings.

Fly again.

-HB